lying!

I lied when I said I was fine
I lied when I said it doesn't matter to me
and I kept lying to myself

oh god am I wrong?
I was not able to be honest
I was too scared by it all

I could only cry
without being able to do anything for myself
god help me

I feel I want to shouting to say
I can
I strong

but the fact I can't do it!